Oh Blog It All

Some things I want to share before I go:

Navy blue sheets from Sheet Street are not colour fast.

When someone tells you that they are incapable of telling a lie, well they are lying right there. Anyone can and everyone does lie at some point in their lives, even if the lie is just saying what they think someone wants to hear.

The Dave Matthews Band is awesome. And I’d listen to their music if only it didn’t make me cry.

People will think what they will, irrespective of what information and facts they do and don’t have; I can’t control their thoughts. At the end of the day I have to live with myself and as long as I know the truth then that is all that matters to me.

I am loved.

Now, I thank you all for stopping by here and taking the time to read my words. I plan to blog again sometime soon only it won’t be in this space and it won’t be as geek’s girl. When I do blog again it will be as just me, Tracy Lee. And I won’t censor myself anymore either, I will blog it all :-)

Well the title says it all I guess. And this after vowing I’d never do this to myself again… but the wine was good, the company was charming and apparently I am quite funny when I am intoxicated. So I’m guessing they thought the more she drinks, the funnier she’s going to be so fill her glass and then sit back and watch the fun unfold.

Well I managed to not slur my words nor blab my secrets. And then I bent down to pick up the cat and I couldn’t get up again. Even I thought that was funny.

Today’s hangover really isn’t all that bad - OMG am I getting used to this?!? - I’m doing way better than the last time. And I’ve got some fabulous plans for the weekend. Telkom, bless ‘em. are supposed to be installing my ADSL tomorrow.

Tonight though I will be practicing my card playing skills. Apparently if I play them right, well, the prize is one of epic proportions ;-)

PS - my mom now reads this blog, “Hello Mom” so maybe I shouldn’t be posting this sort of thing? What the hell, post away I say, mom’s still young, her heart can take it. I love you Mumzy :-)

“And stay right here, ’cause these are the good old days”

All this time I’ve been thinking that my impatience is the problem then I go and find out it’s really my mind reading skills that are sorely lacking.

/sigh

I don’t think I own a duvet big enough to hide under at this point. Option two is to run away but I just don’t know where to.

Guess that leaves suddenly developing a serious interest in my job, throwing myself into my work and aiming for those sixteen hour work days that seem so vital for success in the corporate world.

I mean who needs a home life anyway, right?

If dinner and a movie are typical date fare then I guess I had me a date last night. And with a real cutie I might add – me*.

See “life on my own” hasn’t quite turned out how I had hoped it would, how I had imagined it. Things that I thought would happen didn’t and then there are some totally unexpected things I am dealing with right now, or trying to.

There has been a lot of disappointment too and not so long ago I would not have dealt with it very well. If fact I’d be sitting around feeling sorry for myself, beating myself up over the mistakes I’ve made and adding yet more things to my list of regrets.

But not now, not anymore.

I’ve slowly come to realize that I am okay being by myself and being with myself. And just because life did not hand me exactly what I wanted doesn’t mean that there is nothing else out there for me. There is just so much potential in my life right now, so many options that it’s almost overwhelming. Almost. And it’s been there all along actually, it’s just taken some twists and turns in my life for me to finally see it.

So yes, I can take an evening and treat myself to dinner and a movie and enjoy every minute of it. After all, I’m hanging out with my real best friend – me.

* - I have it on good authority, several good authorities actually, that I may refer to myself as such. I don’t necessarily agree but who am I to argue with authority :-p

“Maybe-” It wasn’t going to come easily, he knew that. He’d far rather stand off single-handedly against a hundred heavy infantrymen of the Fifteenth legion, with one hand tied behind his back and nothing to defend himself with but a wilted leek; he didn’t, however, have that option. “Maybe,” Attila the Hun said shyly, “we oughtn’t to fall off this tower. I mean, not just yet”

“Valhalla” - Tom Holt

Well my new year got off to a banging start. Boy those fireworks sure were loud. Not that I was outside watching the display mind you because Silent Bob was keeping to his end of the bargain by educating me about inter-species erotica among other things.

Yip 2008 has been pretty educational so far and I look forward to the many new things I hope to learn this year. Things like how to sort out my taxes, how to shave my legs without cutting them to shreds, being comfortable in my own skin (and my bikini ;-) and how to communicate with my nearest and dearest yet remain true to myself.

So Happy New Year to me and to you, let’s all make the most of it.

Let’s see, the champagne is chilling in the fridge, Kevin Smith is all set to keep me company till midnight. I think that’s a good way to see in the new year.

Happy New Year to all of you reading, may you find the happiness you seek in 2008. Cheers, see you next year.